I woke up this morning and decided to claim “I am a Rock Star!” I posted it on Facebook and decided I was going to act the part of a successful artist in advance of actually having the career that matches that statement.
I’ve watched enough “law of attraction”, “positive affirmation” and “I am” programs now, that I thought it might be the next level of action that would help me evolve into this person. I am supposed to stake my claim!
Now, I’ve had, over the years, enough fear and doubt around my music to fill up the Milky Way, and it is a constant effort to remind myself “I can do this.” “I can be this.” “I can handle this.” Particularly without real solid support personally, from a manager, family, agent or significant other. I am truly out there, doing this, on my own. And, quite frankly, no one really understands what this means for me and I’ve quit trying to explain it.
Do I have what it takes to build my music business? As a small business artist? On my own? The way other organizations are built? With a limited budget? Winning the 2011 British Airways Face of Opportunity Contest truly gave me the confidence to believe I could build my business, without a record label. I parted ways with my UK label, in part because of the confidence I gained during the competition and in part because they were unable to move my music career forward. I proved to myself I could handle much more responsibility and proved that my business building skills were more solid than I ever realized. That is what a win and Top 10 Video designation got me! It also reminded me of an old saying from my mother, which was “never let anyone do for you what you can do for yourself.” And, I think taking my foot off the pedal to have a label step in and work with me with no results, is a great example of this statement. Technically I lost time, but in reality it was a wonderful experience, moving me forward still to this place I am today.
So, today I :
1) decided to saunter to the Subway instead of schelpp.
2) decided to dress up in my white denim GAP jeans, black lace a-line blouse, Pianegonda sterling silver rock star necklace, Prada sunglasses and vintage Louis Vuitton back pack and look like a Rock Star (I got a few compliments today!) – translation – DRESS like a Rock Star!
3) spent the day: sorting out my photos for retouching on my album insert for the physical CD I will produce, working with an editor on my album insert, drafting an email to fans to announce my upcoming album release, contacting NARAS (The Grammy organization) to learn about entry dates and release dates for Grammy consideration for this year versus next which will clearly impact my release date, speaking with British Airways, creating a better draft of my Night Flight to London music video treatment, sending off photo/bio/mp3 files to UK internet radio station who wants to play my music, obtaining directions to radio station in New Jersey on whose show I will be interviewed on August 1, 2011, tweeting, foursquareing, facebooking, and blogging.
It is fair to say I absolutely love what I do. I am really excited to finally be able to share my music. I can’t wait to get some reaction, as it is completely untested, untried and unknown. It is going to be a singular experience for me as I find out.